130. When death comes
The American poet Mary Jane Oliver has always found inspiration in nature. She was influenced by Thoreau and Walt Whitman.
Her favourite pastime was a solitary walk in the wild.
She once said: “When things are going well, you know, the walk does not get rapid or get anywhere: I finally just stop and write. That's a successful walk!”
Once when she found herself walking in the woods with no pen, she was deeply disappointed.
She narrated her feelings in a very painful way and later hid pencils in the trees so she would never be stuck like that again.
She has said in an interview that she often carried a 3-by-5-inch hand-sewn notebook for recording impressions and phrases.
I took her poetry seriously when a friend based in Iowa gifted her book “New and Selected Poems” to me with a note that she has been declared as the best-selling poet in the United States.
Following poem “When Death Comes” is from the same book.
When death comes
like the hungry bear in autumn;
when death comes and takes
all the bright coins from his purse
to buy me, and snaps the purse shut;
when death comes
like the measles-pox;
when death comes
like an iceberg
between the shoulder blades,
I want to step through the door
full of curiosity, wondering:
what is it going to be
like, that cottage of darkness?
And therefore, I look upon everything
as a brotherhood and a sisterhood,
and I look upon time as no more than an idea,
and I consider eternity as another possibility,
and I think of each life
as a flower, as common
as a field daisy,
and as singular,
and each name
a comfortable music in the mouth,
tending, as all music does, toward silence,
and each body a lion of courage,
and something
precious to the earth.
When it's over, I want to say: all my life
I was a bride married to amazement.
I was the bridegroom,
taking the world into my arms.
When it's over, I don't want to wonder
if I have made of my life
something particular, and real.
I don't want to find myself
sighing and frightened,
or full of argument.
I don't want to end up
simply having visited this world.