most of my life 

I’ve smiled not 

because I was happy 

and content

but to hide my pain

most of my life 

I’ve done 

what I was made to do

not what I wanted to do

most of my life I spoke with 

my brutal honesty

but what is most remembered is

the brutality

not my honesty

now when they speak, they say 

never trust people

only your instinct 

I’ve been searching it

somewhere it seems I have lost it

on the way to fulfill 

my everyday needs

but most of the time

we don’t see 

what we don’t want to see

(Top photo: A painting by Wassily Kandinsky, Composition X, 1939. Image courtesy of wassilykandinsky.net)